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The Hills or Club Heartbreak

by Apatheia Sings

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1.
Words from the kitchen Cooking fine We were promptly seated Down to dine A feast of friends on a sacred night A warm embrace And a fading line Then she said... “Love is just a distraction From all of the pain and the acting.” “No, love is a womb without cover, A notion that you’re different from others.” Memories on the tip of the tongue Slips away like a dream Eclipsed by the thought of a stuttering sun Tears seep through the weakened seams Then she said... “Love is just a reaction to all of The desire and attraction.” “No, Love is just the reflection Of all of our hopeless conceptions.”
2.
She said “like so what? It’s done.” A sort of song like silence and loss I said “Like so what? That’s love?” A sort of spellbound gaze with lust and then some Of wanting too much You were too much I wanted too much We were too much... And the death of my “darling” and I Is caught on the outside And truth be told, this is getting old So then why Is the goddess of ends and a ghost caught on the inside? And if it’s relevant, it was a day well spent, I said goodbye To you I meant it so much less When I saw it on the curbside in the West How these moments become memories Become the death Of me here It’s always near It feels clear When you're right here And the death of my “darling” and I Is caught on the outside And truth be told, this is getting old So then why... Is the goddess of ends and a ghost caught on the inside? And if it’s relevant, it was a day well spent, I said goodbye To you
3.
We, you and me Aren’t working no more I thought this before But now see, you and me We don’t need each other It’s plain to see And though blessed Our love is dead So go on and fly free she said All the healing you need Is sewn right there A heartbeat and staircase that Leads upstairs Up to the room with the stars and the moon On the ceiling Gone, when you left I looked all around and this I found I said “now, here and out, I can feel you close, that humor in you” And though blessed the pain is there But I’m no longer scared All the healing you need Is sewn right there A heartbeat and staircase that Leads upstairs Up to the room with the stars and the moon On the ceiling
4.
God's Blues 02:23
You could choose A way to view this plane Of dreams and lost refrains And countless bodies I can see that you’re a lot like me And seeing blind can be more rewarding in this space Why do you occupy Every heart and mind? Why do you always say "Just wait there for the day"? Why are you so sad? Why are you getting mad? So sorry stoned and sore Just to be reborn We can be together it's not the end And death begins again over and over my friend We all pray on bended knees to stay So sane, but can we look into our mirrored eyes and realize… Why do you occupy Every heart and mind? Why do you always say "Just wait there for the day"? Why are you so sad? Why are you getting mad? So sorry stoned and sore Just to be reborn
5.
Oh the girl on the shore Will she find what she's looking for? She looks to the tides for her calling They’re ebbing in answer she's falling Slowly... Her eyes meet my eyes We both realize That her sighs and my sighs Mean just the same to passersby Oh the girl on the shore In time she stands just as before With closed eyes and beside her guest You know now she decides the rest Surely… Her eyes meet my eyes We both realize That her sighs and my sighs Mean just the same to passersby
6.
Sea and Sky 03:57
When I saw the sky repeating I swear it held me out A sort of lilac worn for my better half When I heard the sea receding I swear it held me out A sort of letter worn for my better half When I saw...
7.
Ghost #7 02:05
(Instrumental)
8.
So far I’ve seen rooms Halls large with masses of values and books and cinema Phantasm, camera lens Hills with blinking lights Flash the shiny bolt out and Over yonder there, Meshed perfection to the enth degree I’ve been nauseous on the outreach of transcendence I’ve floated over you all Dropped back and dizzy Arms of a kinder soul A catcher of sorts I’ve seen doors opened And closed Pathways compelled and completed I’ve had ups and turn arounds I’ve thrust the last orgasm into oblivion Blasting and gassing the last remembrance of your children’s age Into the hands of sewer waste I’ve kissed the rings of monks Turned fire to passion in hope of captivating something more or less of value To you O vastness Gaping deep and wide With ye power stance on the edge of inferno Your yogic abilities stretched emitting Sunday vibes for days, Likened to the woman that needs to run and hold and gather And us who must hunt I’ve seen you forget And fuck and forget again I’ve seen passengers on boats to who knows where now To who knows where is the shadow of tomorrow I swear I swear I’ve had dogs imitate Buddha in front of my very eyes as my brother Asked me the very same question presented with the very same ribbon a top Ice cream slightly melted and dripping Into pores of good will And I’ve been your slut for the last straw I’m tired of these boots Wash me rain and finally end it for no evils, or even exile my mind to the 7th vaporized pigeon hole of a plane, on the cusp of language Or starting a religion I’ve had enough. I’m leaving. I’m going home. Goodbye for now, It was nice knowing you forever And to this... Nothing

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"The Hills or Club Heartbreak", Copyright 2019

A subverted, existential romance story of shifting Light into (and out of) Focus

~How It Sees Itself In and Sets Us All Out~

~Stained Eyes and Love Forever~

~The Places or the Memories~

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released April 19, 2019

All songs written, recorded, and mixed by Noah Miller

Mastered by Jacob Folk
Album Cover by Skylar Watkins

Noah Miller- Vocals, Guitars, Bass, Organ, Synths/Keys, Percussion, Drum Machine, Samples

Girl on the Shore:
Josh Miller- Keys, Guitars, Drums, and Vocals

There's a Veil Over Philadelphia:
Matthew Glosson- Drums, Recording

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